How's life going with me?
Well, I had a fantastic weekend, but I'm still basically miserable. 
Friday night was the Flo Rida concert, I didn't go. Instead I went to Jillmd's house warming party. After Britney and Lauren left, some really fun people came and I made new friends. I was the only one there who didn't smoke weed or cigarettes or both though. When the concert finished, Brit and Lauren kept begging me to go to Dooleys, I knew Travis was there, so I didn't really want to go. I had been brave earlier, and asked if he liked me and his answer was "i like you as much as i like anybody", oh well at least he doesn't hate me i guess? It kind of pissed me off, but i shall survive. So everybody at the party was kind of mad at them calling every two seconds asking me to bring their brush and flasks. So while everyone else was waiting on a limo, because somehow it was cheaper than a cab, Lauren Ponee and a guy named Mitch and I went to the Capri because I was scared that they were going to hate me if I didn't. We got there, and I snuck in TWO flasks in my bra & I gave Mitch my phone, and we got there and Lauren couldn't even brush her hair and Britney was too drunk to drink more. SO IT WAS A TOTAL WASTE. omf, i was super pissed. Everyone was loaded out of their minds that night, I was with Abdul and together we could barely keep up with Lauren. Somehow I managed to get Travis to come pick me up. So I went home and then it turned out Lauren was drugged but a guy we know. She was going on about it, saying it was E and all this. The guy she's in love with, Rhys & Billy, a guy she fucked who has a girlfriend and I were all there listening. She was being really weird and we're all pretty sure it wasn't E, but the guy who gave it to her was FUCKED outta his mind. Like seriously? he came up around 4am and I was on the couch so Lauren Ponee could have a bed, and he was being the biggest douche of life. He was like Beth, ohhh Beth you're Britneys friend, so you have power, but you're fat, so i don't know if i should listen and you should just stop now" UGH, whatevs though. It was still a good night even dispite that. 
Last night I was totally against drinking, but Brittany Marie came in and Justin came and I just ended up finishing off a pint of vodka. We played socialables & then around 1230 Britney, Lauren and Britney Marie all left for the Capri. Justin wasn't too happy with Britney Nicole, so he wanted me to stay with him and save him. So I did, and Melissa and and another guy named Brandon. I am pretty sure I paid for the cab... and Justin works, so boo ..
All I remember when I was at the capri, is that i got my picture taken with the smurfs & I drank a beer ( i hate beer) and that I wasn't there very long.. I must have Travis whiped even if he doesn't like me, because one of my texts say "i'm not driving you home" and then the next one is come out, we're waiting. It was him and his friend Ryan again. Apparently I had been inviting them inside all night but Travis was tired. So I got home and now I've come to a blank .. I don't know what happened or how I got there, but I called Ryan (Travis's friend) from the fourth floor lounge and I talked to him from 2:30-5:00am ..I am not sure, but I think he's got a girlfriend. But he seems like h'e's a good guy and like I have a lot more in common with him than with Travis. I do like Travis still, but I don't like all this lost cause shit.
Britney barged in around 5 and made me hang up on Ryan, cause she thought it was Travis and she's not a fan of him. Then she couldn't find her bb so we went on a mad hunt all around alumni looking for it. She slept in my bed and was talking about stuff I don't care about until almost 6 then I just fell asleep. 
I can't even believe I'm alive right now. Lauren went out and got us Poutine from Glace bay & now Brits still asleep in my bed and it's super hot in here so I can't sleep.
I am texting Ryan and Travis both. What am i getting myself into ..